Thursday, May 30, 2024

Interests and Essential Actions

 20240530 Today's Quick Notes to eDoc/eMail Format


20240530 Today's Quick Notes to eDoc/eMail Format


What can interest me?


I read my blogs, consisting of my own writing and quotes from authors I enjoyed reading.  Interesting that most of it seems to consist of new or organized thinking.


I need to read the first books of the “Great Books” collection that I inherited from my father.  They are by Home, The Iliad and The Odyssey, that now that I look at them I recognize some reading from junior high.  Let me read these again and find either new or permanent lessons.   I also need to keep reading William James for his modern insight into psychology.


Is there anything essential for me to think or do of feel at this poin, phase of my personal growth?


What may change the meaning of my current life?  Illness, injury, imprisonment by a foreign government/agency?


Get back to my normal routes:

Walk, stretch, exercise, read, and write.  Yesterday writing my profile restored my pleasure in writing process.  I had forgotten how much fun it may be.


What motivated me?  Maybe my current reading of I. Asimov or Ira Progoff’s At a Journal Workshop copy writed 1992?





Wednesday, May 29, 2024

Jean Klein's book "Who Am I?"

 Notes from Jean Klein's book "Who Am I?" page 34.


I read this page a few days ago, 20240521.
I read this page again the next day 20240522.  Now it made a lot of good sense.  I am glad I didn’t skip the page as being useless the first time I read it.  So much of my life has been lived as a “professional doer."

I quote the page 34 below:

“Q. Doesn’t one have a personal responsibility to change things one feels are wrong?
A.  When you are free from the idea of being somebody, the problem of responsibility doesn’t play a role.  When you are no longer limited by the personality , there is intelligence and acting is adequate from moment to moment.
Notes from Jean Klein's book "Who Am I?" page 34.

I read this page a few days ago, 20240521.
I read this page again the next day 20240522.  Now it made a lot of good sense.  I am glad I didn’t skip the page as being useless the first time I read it.  So much of my life has been lived as a “professional doer."

I quote the page 34 below:

“Q. Doesn’t one have a personal responsibility to change things one feels are wrong?
A.  When you are free from the idea of being somebody, the problem of responsibility doesn’t play a role.  When you are no longer limited by the personality , there is intelligence and acting is adequate from moment to moment.
(Note 1 underlined) If you have any idea of being somebody, a friend, helper, political person, teacher, mother, father, and so on you will only see the situation colored by this image.  It is a fractional view and because it is partial it breeds conflict and reaction.  Since the action did not appear and disappear in wholeness there will be residue.  Before acting, one must understand the situation.  To fully comprehend it, you must face the facts free from ideas.  It must belong to your wholeness; otherwise you are stuck to the wheel of reaction where there is only relationship from concept to concept.

(Note 2 underlined) When you become a professional doer you are no longer spontaneous.  You can never create harmony.  It is beautiful to be really nothing, without qualification.  All that appears, appears in you and you act according to the appearance using your capital. Intellectual, bodily, material, etc.  Then all action is balanced."


Tuesday, May 28, 2024

HIGHLIGHTS OF MY CAREER

 HIGHLIGHTS OF CAREER:

Spent teenage years working for my mother, Ruth Nissen Vogt MD, caring for severely retarded (now known as Intellectual Disability) children as part of her business. The “Special Children” lived in a wing of our home at 187 Stowe Mt. Rd Hillsboro NH. I was repair-man at Hillsboro Camp (for girls) during summers.

In my first adult career I spent 10 years running US submarines: Monitoring foreign USSR ships and submarines in North Pacific, building US nuclear submarine in Newport News Virginia Naval Shipyard, monitoring USSR submarine operations at HQ of Commander Submarine Force Atlantic in Norfolk VA.

I left naval active duty to become technical and marketing writer/manager for military agencies in Washington DC. I was commuting from Baltimore, MD where I met the flame of my life, Amanda.

 

Monday, April 15, 2024

20240415 Return of My Memory

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As my memory returns I rediscover items of knowledge and regain old memories.  

I realize that my recommendations in my earlier emails are missing a key factor.

A key factor is Awareness of the motion of our bodies.  Examples include our walking, our laying down, rolling over, …. the kind of movements you do in your morning classes in the workout space.  This is the number one step in learning to “meditate.”  A step that is so basic most people forget to mention it.  Spend a few years learning to experience body awareness during the day.  Do this for at least a few hours each day.

I never felt limited to only a few hours, but that seemed to be the general advice.  I work to do it continuously all the time that I am awake.  Am I kidding myself?  I don’t think so.

One difficulty in sharing this idea is that many people say, “Of course I am aware of my body.”  But then if we watch them we may notice many moments of little or no awareness.

The word of some is that if we neglect physical awareness then we embark on all sorts of mental awareness that are primarily imagination only.

Saturday, December 04, 2021

How to be a Workaholic

 

Soldier, Ask Not (Childe Cycle, #3)Soldier, Ask Not by Gordon R. Dickson
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

One of the most inspiring books I ever read. It enabled me to truly focus on nothing but my task in life. In retrospect not too healthy for me, but a lot of fun for several decades.

Quote from "Soldier, Ask Not" by Gordon R. Dickson
"They are fools that think that wealth or women or strong drink or even drugs can buy the most in effort out of the soul of a man. These things offer pale pleasures compared to that which is the greatest of them all, that task which demands more from him than his utmost strength, that absorbs him, bone and sinew and brain and hope and fear and dreams -- and still calls for more.

They are fools that think otherwise. No great effort was ever bought. No painting, no music, no poem, no cathedral in stone, no church, no state was ever raised into being for payment of any kind. Not Parthenon, no Thermopylae was ever built or fought for pay or glory; no Bukhara sacked or China ground beneath Mongol heel, for loot or power alone. The payment for doing these things was itself the doing of them.

To wield oneself -- to use oneself as a tool in one's own hand -- and so to make or break that which no-one can build or ruin -- that is the greatest pleasure known to man! To one who has felt the chisel in his hand and set free the angel prisoned in the marble block, or to one who has felt the sword in hand and set homeless the soul that a moment before lived in the body of his mortal enemy -- to these both come alike the taste of that rare food spread only for demons or for gods."

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Thursday, May 14, 2020

My Retirement: Philosophy and Politics, Love and Friendship, the Crown Jewels of Leisure


  • Motivation for writing this essay:  Why am I wasting my valuable retirement time writing about retirement?  Because I want to have a better understanding of what I am doing and what I should be doing.  I discovered during the past couple of years that when a question won’t leave me alone, writing about it allows me to either move forward to the next question, or put the question aside with a well thought out answer.  This essay has freed me to move on confidently and with enthusiasm for future questions.


What do I or should I expect of my retirement?  I have been pondering this for the last five or so years, but the question has more urgency now that I have been retired for 2 years.  I had the idea in my high school years to learn about the world of work (men, machines and martians) for about 25 years, and then settle down to enjoy literature and write stories.  I would accumulate money in order to relax and read my books full time, maybe hike the White Mountains in New Hampshire with a backpack of good science fiction.  Over the years this idea has evolved to the ambition to fill the gaps in my liberal education as soon as I could.  I assumed that any educated person who was not an engineer or scientist had learned the history of our culture, understood the philosophers, theologians, and knew the ongoing conversations of politics and economics over the last 2,500 years.  It is very rare to find anyone who doesn’t have some gaps in their “liberal education.” 

What happened to the liberal education and the bachelor of arts degree?  I have recently learned from some of the essays of Mortimer J. Adler, that a liberal education is a life time effort.  We should expect high school and college to only provide the basic skills of critical and independent thinking needed to acquire a liberal education through one’s own effort during a lifetime.  

This is what I aspire to.  Adler says that “The direct product of liberal education is a good mind, well disciplined in its processes of inquiring and judging, knowing and understanding, and well furnished with knowledge, well cultivated by ideas.”   Quoted from Adler’s essay "Liberal Education—Theory and Practice (1945).”  

I can look back on my experience now and recognize many good minds, independent, critical thinkers, in my life.  I am fortunate to have known and worked with so many good people.

What is retirement for me so far?  Retirement brought unexpected observations of how my body and mind work.  I am learning to understand other people.  During my “working” years I was in too much of a hurry and too sleep deprived to notice my own feelings and sensations, to pay deep attention to others, (except my wife, Amanda, she has always had my deepest attention), to listen to my body’s response to sugar, caffeine, alcohol, fatigue, exercise, or to notice my conditioned reflexes.  

I have been reading a lot of books from the libraries.  My spontaneous reading about health lead me to the discovery of conditioned reflexes and their role in the placebo effect.  I spent several months, spring and summer of 2018, closely observing how my body and lower mind act on their own, almost like a well trained dog, without (and sometimes in spite of) my conscious effort.  These experiences may be part of another essay.  

Amanda has educated me on all the good drama and comedy from the last 40 years that I missed because I was busy working.  I had never appreciated the quality of acting and writing that goes into so much of the fiction and literature available to us. I learned negotiation tactics from various legal dramas that I wish I had paid attention to back in the 80’s when they first aired.

What is retirement for others?  I have paid attention to what others are doing such as, acquaintances from the Navy, celebrities and politicians, and biographies of people whom I admire or want to understand.  Some people just keep on working, lawyers and supreme court justices, actors and actresses, writers and artists, politicians and business people.  I gradually came to the realization that a lot of the people I respected had taken time to get advanced business and political education at various points in their lives.  I never seriously considered this for myself, I was too busy studying the technology of what ever business I was involved with.  

Many people travel.  A Freakonomics podcast reported that the great majority of people, world wide, across all income levels spend the first two or three years of retirement traveling, then they come home, sit in front of their televisions and die.  (See Retirement Kills (Ep. 75), Freakonomics podcast.). Note also Peter Drucker has a lecture that includes preparing for retirment by finding new activities and building the needed skills prior to retirement. For me, my Navy years satiated my desire for  extensive travel.  Amanda fulfilled her travel desires a couple of decades ago while she was still working.  I enjoy watching occasional Youtube videos of past Navy acquaintances sailing the north Atlantic, paddling the Arctic ocean or hiking across the Himalayas.  Fun to watch but not for me to do.

What is work?  Two retired acquaintances, both former senior executives in the nuclear power industry, with whom I discussed pros and cons of retirement, are just so glad to be out of the workforce and “being able to do what I want to do.”  I never understood this phrase “being able to do what I want to do?”  Don’t we always do what we want to do?  Who is stopping us?  This should be especially true for people who have some autonomy in their jobs.  Most of my working years were challenging and fun.  There were occasional tedious tasks, but I took them as interesting, sometimes fascinating, opportunities for streamlining procedures, training, and incremental automation of tasks.  In Peter Drucker’s words, I never considered that I was cutting a stone, I was building a cathedral!  (I tried to leave as many great stones and foundations behind me as I moved from job to job.).  Adler would probably say that carving stones as a job is work, carving beautiful stone blocks or building cathedrals is as a leisure activity because they are making me a better person in the process.  I never really felt like I was “working” in any of my jobs.  (On rare occasions I even felt guilty because why are they paying me so much to do this great stuff!)  

How did I decide to retire?  Amanda showed me that we could retire, I was convinced.  If she had left it to me I would not have re-evaluated the possibility for another five years or so (I had developed a routine of re-evaluating time to retirement once a decade or so).   Amanda had retired several years before, but she was still taking calls from old customers.  I was just beginning to learn about the business side of the IT world and contracting.  Business is full of exciting challenges that I anticipated practicing for a few more years.  Maybe by the age of 70 I would have taken a serious look at retiring.  Jane, my younger sister, retired several months before I did.  She advised me to follow Amanda’s advice.  If you can retire, do it!  This was good advice for us.  Once I agreed with Amanda that it was time for me to retire, I couldn’t wait to get there.

It is easy to delay retirement due to bad decisions and bad luck.  If my life had gone according to plan I would have retired about age 45 instead of in my 60’s.  Recounting and understanding these mistakes may be part of another essay.

I discovered the idea of leisure.  Thanks to Mortimer J. Adler’s essays, I discovered that what I wanted to know about was leisure, not retirement!  I’ve been thinking and planning retirement since I started working as teenager.  My Dad advised us children “pay yourself first.”  Leisure is something that I never distinguished as an idea worthy of thought, I thought that leisure was lazy, that is not me!  I am doing some preliminary reading on the topic of leisure.  Leisure is not simple to describe.  Leisure activities could be considered an art and a science.  

I was very fortunate to acquire a set of the Great Books of the Western World that my father owned.  My Dad told me that he had expected to do some reading of these books during his retirement.  He found that he never took the leisure to read as much as he had expected.  His retirement became too busy with chores, family (my mother and his sister), and volunteer organizations (school board and church committees).  I developed my planned reading list for the topic of leisure by using the Great Books Syntopicon.  The list starts with readings from the old testament Genesis and Proverbs through Plato, Aristotle, … Shakespeare up through modern times  including Adam Smith, Kant, Hegel, Karl Marx, Tolstoy, and Freud.  From my own reading I would include a review of Galt’s Gulch in Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand.

I looked at what people are saying now about retirement and leisure.  Most of what I found on-line, or in the AARP literature, is a repeat of valuable classic ideas, such as what Sylvia Porter said in her book about money management (Sylvia Porter’s New Money Book for the 80’s).  When I was a child and questions of money came up, my father would say, “Let’s see what Sylvia Porter has to say.”  He would pull her book down from the shelf in the living room and bring it back to the dinner table to look up our question.  College classes on leisure seem to be focused on marketing to the retired or vacationing folks.  My quick survey on Google found no college classes offering real discussion of what leisure is or how it should be used.  This is a sad transition of the college BA degree from how to live well to how to make a living.  

I found an excellent summary of leisure in an essay by Mortimer J. Adler “Labor, Leisure, and Liberal Education (1951).”  He starts off with, “ … the end of liberal education, … lies in the use we make of our leisure, …”

Adler continues with several interesting points:
  • A liberal education has three departments: physical, moral, and intellectual.  
  • "The good or happy life is a life lived in the cultivation of virtue. … it is concerned with leisure.  The good life depends on labor, but it consists of leisure."
  • "Leisure activities constitute not mere living but living well. They are what Aristotle calls ‘virtuous activities’ or the ‘goods of the soul.’”


Retirement is not a vacation.  My initial impulse was to treat retirement like an extended vacation.  After a few months my body told me this was not working.  Life still requires many of the skills that I used in my working years.  I found that focus, goals, planning, and deliberate practice are still values that are important to my happiness.  I cannot just lounge around exploring the backroads of New Hampshire, eating cinnamon rolls, muffins, Oreo creme filled cookies, and drinking craft beer at every opportunity.  There are still bills to pay, (my wife keeps us current), health to look after, (for both of us), and fitness to maintain and improve, etc.  My wife is exploring cooking, painting, and organizing our lives. She signs the Plan of the Day (POD) now, in addition to writing it.  My kids are no longer required to give “chow calls” (a military school hazing practice) when they visit.  I have learned to have patience with my workouts, take the time to warmup properly and do easy calisthenics in sets of 40, 80 or a 100.  (I still lack patience to do cool down stretching.)  Large sets used to be just too boring, now it is routine, imagine that!  I discovered that doing pushups once a week is as useful and less  risk of damage to my shoulder than doing pushups three times a week.  This is some of the work of leisure.

What is the best use of my leisure?  I realized in the first months of my retirement that I have a strong desire to be productive.  But I want to be productive in the right way.  I don’t want to sink my time and energy into local politics, volunteering, random travels, random reading (idle curiosity).  I want to understand how our world and our society has come to its present condition.  Why do we make the choices we do?  Why do politicians and leaders make the decisions they make?  What does it mean to have good conversation?  How can I truly understand myself, my friends, my neighbors, the people I meet in my local community? 

Rather than reinvent or rediscover these conversations, I am spending time looking into the what has been said about leisure in our western culture.  What saved me a lot of time and fumbling around in my ignorance was Mortimer J. Adler’s recounting of Aristotle’s discussion of leisure activities.  This essay described the distinction of “leisure-work,” that the crown jewels [my words] of retirement are philosophy and politics, both broadly interpreted.  Other important activities of leisure are love and friendship.  (See the postscript to “The Time of Our Lives: The Ethics of Common Sense by Mortimer J. Adler,” page 11.)

My conclusion so far is that my retirement provides leisure choices.  Adler’s description of Aristotle's evaluation and ranking of leisure activities is a life changing insight for me because I see that Aristotle’s words classify my own desires, they classify the activities that took up so much of my father’s time in retirement, the activities of many of my former associates from the Navy, the civilian working world, and the people I learn about in books or in the news.  My retirement is an unfolding mystery.  My retirement facilitates the leisure activities of discovery (philosophy), teamwork (politics) and spending time in conversation with friends (love and friendship)!

Sunday, February 23, 2020

Memory of Early Christmas Morning about 1964

It is Christmas morning. I used to get up and sneak out to the Christmas tree and check the gifts. Take something back to bed to open and play with under my orange candle light in the window. 
After my night time exploration, I would set a trap for my younger brother Jim, so that he wouldn't be able to do the same. One Christmas morning about 2 am I leaned a hollow brass pipe on the door to the bed room that Jim and Harry were sharing. In side the pipe was a brass rod. (These were items that I had found at the site of the construction of the new wing to our grade school.)
About 4 am, (ridiculously late!), I heard a crash in the hallway. Jim and Harry had opened the door to their bed room, the pipe and rod fell to the floor with a clatter. Then Jim stepped out onto the pipe in the dark. He fell down and the pipe with the rod inside rolled across the hallway and hit the opposite wall. The dog was barking. My father got up out of bed to see what was going on. "Jim, get back to bed!" was what he said.
I covered my laughter with my pillow as I listened to all the racket in the house on Christmas morning at 4 am.